Lately

A walking ghost
Grass grows through my feet
as if I'm in a dream
but I feel more alive
than I've felt in a while

Some day I'll find the words to say
but my heart beats in my throat
my brains all fuzzy and I can't think
So I'll just float

I'll just choke on the muscle in my throat

In my throat

Until my eyes dilate
Till my hands turn blue
Till my ears fill with bees
and rubber bands squeeze my knees

And our wrists intertwine
and our throats in knots
and these bees in my ears
waltzing out my thoughts

So I'll just float
I'll just choke
On this muscle in my throat